a confused love

sometimes i feel like i have lost you,
sometimes like we have never met,
at times i find myself remembering,
the things i know i should forget,

sometimes i sit back and wonder,
why i'm still around,
but i know theres gotta be something,
that lost but will be found,

a confused heart,
can't love for sure,
a confused love,
is something that we endure,

a confused lover,
who's stuck in a state of hate,
can't love another confused lover,
who's apology came too late ...

wasn't expected

 there was a time, when i did something that annoyed someone,
 and learn a lesson in a worst kind of way,
 when i had to pay the price that i can't even pay,
 true, i am still in big debt for the action i made,


 then i realized how much it means to fully understand,
 the important of golden rule in life,
 treat others the way you want to be treated,
 and always considered we all do have emotions,

 there was a time, when we stand on our own principle of life,
 we don't care who or what not in our way,
 and pretend to be like a person that so awesome,
 before we got hit and fell down into the deepest shits of all,

 pre-relationship is typically always aren't truly showed,
 fake attitude, darkside of emotion, negative thinking,
 is what some people hate the most,
 we have no rights to accuse other when we ourself dislike to be accused,

 oh wait, is there anyone likes to be accused? hell no.
 nobody wants to be treated that kind of way,
 we can made all kind of reason why we did this and that,
 but we need to remember we're not the only one who went through life,

 i sense something wrong with your attitude,
 there is questions in you that need to be answer,
 but that doesn't mean i'm clean,
 it's just, you doesn't seems like what i have expected.

true friend stays

whatever you do right now,
i believed you have your reason,
to work on things to fix some mess,
true, everyone have got something to do,

so yeah, friends do come and go,
but true friend stays,
stays to accompany you no matter what,
to share laugh and tears,

where ever you go,
no matter what you do,
believed.
you have my prayers,

we will meet again,
not in typical form,
but as always as we used to do,
believed me, we will,

as the time flow,
i should probably go,
until next time dear friend,
until next time...

just let me sink to the bottom of the sea ... 

it is the only place i wanna be...

the best is yet to come.

there's still hope out there for people like us.

once again,

fall asleep in the car,

fall asleep with tears,

wondering when it will run out dry...

once again,

thinking when it will end,

hoping for the happy end,

though it won't happen anytime soon...

once again,

asking my reflection, my prediction,

if she for him,

could she be you...

perhaps,

i didn't follow my true intention,

breaking my own rules,

afraid to loose what i want

but not what i need...

blinded by you,

love, you did so well...

it seems to be,

i learnt a good lesson,

in hard way...

oh i know

fate can't be so cruel,

he just did what he did best,

and i believed, the best is yet to come.

the best is yet to come.

spoil

im not happy nor sad
not even excited, just like back then

you claim to be you
but you aren't anymore

why bother to get to me
when you had the better one

or did you now see as i am back then
or did you realize the mistakes you made back then
or maybe

im not worth to start with in the first place