Kebelakangan Hari

Sejak dua tiga minggu kebelakangan ni, kerap kali aku ke port makan yang agak jauh sedikit dari firma. Ya...Sup Hussin...sup kedai ni memang kick dan side dish popia terbaik dari ladang. Selalunya aku ke sini hanya pada hari Jumaat, tetapi kedatanganku ke sini menjadi semakin kerap. 

The only reason

The only reason to get home early is to be by your side...

:-D

Tak Sabar Ketemu Kamu

Perasaan sensasi yang lebih hebat merkar
daripada selesai akad yang dilafaz

Strength

from client to community
disaster maybe
claim to serve a better place
for you to trap in with

when you say

When you say.......'I can't solve this..'....God tells you.......'I will direct your path'...

When you say.......'I feel all alone'.........God tells you.......'Never will i leave you, Never will i forsake you'..

When you say.......'I can't do it'...........God tells you.......'Try,I'm with you'..

When you say.......'I don't deserve forgiveness'....God tells you.......'I have forgiven you'...

When you say.......'I am afraid'.........God tells you..'Do not fear.I am with you.I will strengthen you and help you'

When you say.......'I am tired'.....God tells you...'Come to me,all you who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest..

When you say.......'No one really loves me'......God tells you.......'I love you'...

When you say .......'I don't know how to go on'..God tells you......'I will show you the path'

When you say........'What path does god have for me?'.....God tells you....'Adopt the Islamic path'



And when you want to know everything else that god wants to tell you..Read Al Quran

breaking dejavu

The night where it all begun,
when you are still young and innocent,
where you started to fall in hopes and wishes,
and you never thought,
that someday your wish may granted,

Days come and go,
when you learnt to let things go,
but when you really found,
it was not a rebound,
it was just an unfinished business,
things you left without good mark,
where you could never finish it up back then,
until you are ready enough,
to become someone you never thought you will.

God has created a masterpiece,
beauty and brilliant within,
strong but fragile called she,
meant for whom appreciate for,

Even you tried to read her as much as you could,
but you knew she did way more better,
and pretty good as well,
it was like riding a bicycle,
a perfect rhythm, that makes you move on.

It is time to break the dejavu,
to extend this chemistry to a whole new level,
where you could see the new world,
far away beyond you ever were!

charming 2011

There's no word i could write to describe this pure feeling, no pictures to show too, only some sketches and i'm too lazy to put it here. Miracle just happened and i'm looking forward to see what's in for me on 2011.

Come to think about what happen last night, It was a crazy confession. But no doubt it was a critical decision.

Can't wait to see what's next,

i believed, it's gonna be a blooming year!

puzzling

it was all in the beginning,
the one and only was there ever since,
right before my eyes, but,
undoubted, it wasn't the right time,

as the time goes by,
we learnt the values of life,
perhaps, mr.fate has set us up,
to be prepare for the next new level,

puzzles of life aren't fun to play with,
everyone has pieces for them to solve,
some pieces involve you and others,
which includes risks and chances,

i know, sooner or later,
i need to face the challenge i ever feared,
one of important values of life that I always bad at,
a confession.

it's totally different with "confessions of a shopaholic".

hehee =3

all this moment will be sacred,

as i'm very appreciate of your appearanced,

in every type of form,

you are a miracle, 

just the way you are.

believed in him, mak.

it might be the only mistake that he did,
i don't know, but i keep assuming that way,
but please don't over do what you do right now,
optimist is the only way i could think for you to feel okay.

but i know it might be hard for you,
hard for anyone who had gone what you been through,
hard for me too, even the part i involved was small,
ya Allah, how may i fix this stuff :(

it's so completely different league and level i could never reach,
be patient dear mak, i'm always by your side,
can't wait to finish this stuff to keep you accompany,
it's part of the reason why i'm here.

born to be your son.

;)

Subhannallah.

so much inspiration!
so much motivation!

i must not fail!

please let me get through this once again Ya Rahman!

snippets I

wise man said:
"ketika satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup, pintu yang lain akan dibukakan.Tapi seringkali kita terpaku terlalu lama pada pintu yang tertutup sehingga tidak melihat pintu lain yang dibukakan untuk kita"

snippets

"assalamualaikum din, heard you break away with girlfriend, don't be too emotional, be strong. There are many girls out there, don't worry".

"wa`alaikumussalam pak, thanks, yup, i'm still in control, i did solat istikharah and hajat, and i felt much more better now, i'm cool, she called me on this early morning and ask for forgiveness and wish to return back, din takk kesah to accept her back, how about your opinion pak? everyone deserve second chance, kan?"

"Question is she was undecisive. If she really love you than there should not be any reservation or doubt on you. Jangan dijadikan pelampung keselamatan je".

"i think, it was long distance relation effect? to make it worse, there's third person occurred. But she just realized what is really happen, its my intention to let her made her own  decision as for the last test before i proceed to the next level, is it wrong pak?"   

- Silent, no more replies -

when everything else failed

she always be there when i need someone to hold with,

never failed to cheer me up and calm me down,

the only women that never break my fragile heart,

when everything else failed,

before me breaking into pieces,

she fixed me up,

pure love.

dear lovely mak, thanks.

just as i thought

After cases by cases occurred, finally what me did expected just happened. But why. why do i let things happen just to kill me more than what is done.

things just happen.

another lesson learnt.

thanks.

sweet escape

when you countered too much problem in your way, sometimes you need to escape! there's always a way to be happier.

sit and watch the sea and the rock while doing nothing

our plane just crashed at the end of estuary back there, and we were the only survivors.

smell and taste just like chicken.

i just loved floating on the sea, very cozy.  

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studio kembali menggila

it's your day

May Allah bless you with goodness and wellness till the end, be happy always, ignore those who try picking on you, always believe in what you do, no obstacle can stops you by Allah's will, instead it only makes you tougher and stronger, bear in mind there's a lot people full with love surround you, appreciate them as much as they appreciate you. 

Don't hesitate too much if you met the right guy, good guys don't hang around too much, so grab one of them while they still around!

Stop blaming yourself, if you did so. Because there's always a reason for something to happened and it does happened all around the world.

be happy,

be yourself,

hold what you believe in,

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because today it's your day,

it's your birthday.

"selamat hari lahir".

too much error can't be undo. i'm not worth to be with you.

Rod Stewart - I Don't Wanna Talk About it

I can tell by your eyes that you've 
probably been crying forever 
And the stars in the sky don't mean 
nothing to you they're a mirror 

I don't wanna talk about it 
How you broke my heart 
If I stay here just a little bit longer 
If I stay here won't you listen to my heart 
Oh oh my heart 

If I stand all alone will the shadows 
hide the colours of my heart 
blue for tears, black for the night 
fears the stars in the sky 
don't mean nothing to you they're a mirror 

I don't wanna talk about it 
How you broke my heart 
If I stay here just a little bit longer 
If I stay here won't you listen to my heart 
Oh oh my heart

Fixed

wiiiewwwwwwwwwwwww~

What a tiresome routines, but somehow i'm satisfied with it. Even though i still can't find proper freelance job in my field yet, but doing part-time as casual hotel worker still gave me good earnings. There's no easy-job to earn money in this world, they all have their own difficulties and complexities in many kind of ways. At least me could sustain money and manage to made up small scale savings.

Well, money is not everything, but in order to sustain life, money it is. We shouldn't look at one point of opportunity alone, because it would blind us from several more of other opportunities that probably gives us more advantages. Meanwhile seeking for opportunities ... never ever sacrificed relationship with anyone, no matter what. At least for me, that is what i sacred the most.

i'm happy to see you guys turned positive like this and i hope it last longer than expected. Time spended on this case really worth it.

It is fixed.

At least for now.

as i recall ...

i remembered a friend told me about things that would happen to me in abstract kind of way, she is not a fortune teller ... or anything relate with that field neither. i forgot how she did the calculation with date of birth, letters of name, and some what which i totally forgot what is it, and i don't believe such things, because me believe in faith of qada' & qadar.

But suddenly, after so many cases occurred in this path i took, some words of her reminds me about this and that...things that makes me feels like..."oh someone did told me this", "i shouldn't did this", "damn, i fell to this crap which i think i won't be fool by it". Too many wrong decisions i made and i can't take it back, i can't undo all the wrong doing of mine... i thought i could overtake the situation...but ironically i can't. It's too much for me. i can't do this alone.

"Past is past, let by gone be by gone". That statement really hurt me a lot. Too easy to say than being done. Sharing a problem only makes it complexity grows bigger. To lived in the world of opera theater, it feels like everyone playing their own role of character, and me too included. It really sucks to pretend to be okay, but the truth is, i am not okay.  

When i was younger, i thought it would be easy to get through all this. Too much "emotions control efficiency" needed to live as adult...and it gets more and more complicated as the time flows.

this is too much.

this is too much.

i'm afraid, i probably can't make it this time.

how ironic

The one who you protect the most should had protected you, that is how things should done.

sadly this is not going to happen.

ironically, you treat them nicely. well done.